While I was waiting for the
result of tutor entrance exam, I sat the exam to attend the Ph.D, held in the Institute of Science and Technology. (It was
the same place where ‘Rangoon Institute of Technology’ (R.I.T) where my brother
once attended his engineering classes.). It so happened that the two
results came out on the same day (in 1998). I passed one of them. Surely I
failed again the tutor exam. 63 of 64 candidates passed the tutor exam, and they
became full-time tutors.
This time I began to understand
my fortune never favor me to be a tutor. I gave up my ambition. I had no other
choice. I was going to attend the Ph.D (Maths) classes in the Institute of
Science and Technology. Among the Ph.D candidates, there were 3 Mathematics
major Master students (M.Sc) including me, and the other majorities were
Physics major Master students (M.Sc). The Ministry of Science and Technology
gave all the candidates the salary for attending the Ph.D classes. One day we
would have obtained the Ph.D degree, and became the teachers in the Institute
of Science and Technology. Their plan seemed great!
(Why I was taught Physics here!)
In the beginning, all the candidates
were taught Physics at the Ministry of Science and Technology. We were told
that it was just for the time being. It went on 8 months. I hated to study
Physics, which was not my subject. Those eight months was hell to me. I did not
want to repeat and even to think about it. Times I passed there tortured me in
every minute, and even in every second. After 8 months (I thought I would
attend the Ph.D (mathematics) classes soon.) we were told that we would have to
sit the entrance exam again and the previous exam we had already passed was not
considered any more. We were also told that if we failed the exam, we would
have to work as government servant at the Ministry of Science and Technology. (If
we fail, Ph.D! No way!) Before the exam, there would have been made 2 years
agreement between the candidates and the Ministry of Science and Technology. I thought
it was not fair and I alone was decided to sit the exam again. I had no choice
but to quit.
Before I left, I met one of
Physics professors at the office. He said, ‘Are you well decided?’ I nodded. He
continued, ‘Okay, if it is so, I have nothing to say more. I understand young
people can do what they like. When you are older, you will understand what it
means.’ If he could read my mind, he heard what I replied, ‘No, sir. If I were
your age, my decision will be the same.’ I said bye to my friends, and back to
home.
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| (I am free! I am Free!) |
(I could not help my feeling along my
returning home.)
My heart became free like a bird
able to fly from the cage. The way I returning home, everything I saw was
beautiful, and lovely. However I met hard traffic, and I was in the jam-packed
bus, the world seemed light and fresh. When I reached home, I told my parents,
and my grandma what I had decided today. They always preferred do what I like. My
mother said from now on she would never hear complains about my unhappy life
from me any more. Her daughter always chat-chat whenever she came home from her
study.
I now realized my fortune never
give a chance to let me as a tutor in the University. My life at the University
was like a fool’s paradise for more than 10 years with the hope to be a tutor.
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